I once had an incredibly
intelligent literature teacher, that always when she came to teach and talk to
us about love she first asked:
My darlings, have you already
been in love?
At first I was way too shy, and
just stood quiet in my eternal silence waiting for her to give me the answer.
But years passed, and I still listened to that same question made by the same
person. Till one day I decided that: yes, I already had been in love. If what I
felt till then was real, for me it was love. So I can now answer the question
and fulfill my teacher’s doubts. So I raised my hand before everyone very
agitated, and answered very loudly so that everyone could see that I was
finally answering too! And said: YES! With all the letters strongly YES!!
Truth was I hadn’t; even though I
answered that question a lot, repeatedly yes.
And I only got to know that I was
wrong, I year after the last time she asked me. When I truly discovered what
love was. And guess what: we don’t see it coming! We only know we already been
in love after it has already turned you and your world upside down.
And then I knew that the answer
to that question should never ever be said in enthusiasm, and for sure with inspiration,
fatigue, contemplation, that faces with both time a million expressions and no
expression at all, and that profound thoughtfulness, lost inside the mind of
the lovers, that endless doubt that comes among the one who loves, or that once
did.
For now I am grateful for having
known what love is, but it was a hell of an adventure. That roller coaster that
you ride with your eyes shut. Fearing what comes next and never having the
smallest clue of what it is.
Only one thing more, Teacher I
had no idea what was coming for me, but I’m for sure that you knew, both: That
I hadn’t been in love yet at the time, at it was coming, it was so close I had
no idea! That it was just around the corner waiting for me.
And that’s for those of you who
don’t believe that destiny exists.
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